I am getting unsure of what im feeling for you. More or less, Im not so sure. Hell, i dont even know what im feeling. I hate that. Isnt it a human thing, to feel? About what they say, that the beautiful things must be felt with the heart? But what is so beautiful about pain? Jealousy? So much hurt? What is so beautiful about that? Is it Love? Trust? Dont they only come down to hurt? Pain? They do right? Such a tiring feeling. Hope. But i cant stop hoping, expecting. I dont want to feel anything , anymore. It would be better to be numb then hurt. Ha. What am i saying. If you want to call, you would right? No excuses. Did you forget about me? I always took the risk. Always. I thought you knew.

Ha.